Interests:cooking strange and exotic dishes, eating strange and exotic dishes, the Food Network, singing (in the shower), good literature, playing the piano, listening to live music, having good hearty conversations with wonderful people. Expertise:talking too loud in public without realizing it. Occupation:Student
i've had a series of food related dreams in the past couple weeks. in one, i was at a breakfast buffet, but my sister managed to wake me up right as i was about to dig into a huge vat of scrambled eggs. seriously, talk about bad timing. last night's involved me preparing some sort of feast. i think there was something involving sashimi and an attempt to make a warm dessert out of horchata. then in one of last week's dreams, i was invisible and could also fly.
should it worry me that the two seasons of Grey's Anatomy doug gave me has prevented me from sleeping and actually leaving my home in the past couple days? eh. i guess not. its as addicting as harry potter, except sexual and adulterous. ooh, creepy.
oh yea, as an update, i'm moving to dc in january to start a job i'm really excited about. thanks to andrea for pressuring me to apply :) while i wasn't before, i'm ready to put myself into my work again. to care about the very things i had forgotten were most important to me. in the meantime, truly feeling like i have absolutely no responsibilities or deadlines to meet for the first time in ... ever. also, i move around too much. one or two years, and i'll be someplace new again. maybe in even less than one year. scared about a lot of stuff, but i know there shouldn't be reason to be. i'm blessed, but i don't know why its so hard to see that most of the time. i do feel that now, i'm starting to take steps that count. decisions that have been long overdue most of my life. its probably the first time i've been allowed to make those decisions on my own. i hope there is a breath of fresh air soon. its always there, i know.
Is it crazy that i now want to get an mph with my law degree? I flirted with the idea last fall, but since i didn't end up applying to school, the idea fell by the wayside. its resurfaced now after realizing i really want to accomplish certain things in the future where both a law degree and a better understanding of public health would be great. i'm hesitant because there is a very high probability i won't get into law school this year and will have to reapply next year. of course, the way joint degrees are set up gives me a couple options. a lot of the best programs allow me to apply to the mph prgm as a 1L. so if i get into law school for fall 2007, I can simply apply to the mph prgm at the school i end up attending. or, if i don't get in this year, then i can apply to the joint degrees at the same time next year. my friend juliet has advised me not to get an mph because she started the prgm at berkeley, hated it, then quit. she said its boring and a waste of time. but, she already had her MD at that point and was, i presume, quite burned out. I, on the other hand, feel incomplete without learning some more science, but definitely don't want an MD. also, she's more into biology and actually treating people, whereas i like numbers. then there's the whole issue of it just being way too much work. a law degree alone is already difficult and i want to tack on epidemiology and biostat to that? i really hate that i want to do all this, but feel like i have to prove myself to an admissions council to allow me to...help people, as lame as that sounds (the helping ppl bit). i just want to learn some skilllzzz dammit. why does institutionalized learning have to be such a fucking privilege? a terrible terrible thing, really. especially since (in my experience) the people who are best at kissing ass at top institutions may not be concerned with using that knowledge the way i want to. though, is the truth that i am actually being selfish? i don't really want to help others and just want to get a name brand education? so many things to do. should i just trust that the zillions of others smarter than me care enough to accomplish it and its not really my role to assume that position just because some childish fire in me tells me i need to attack problems i perceive as important? what do you do when you want to contribute, but feel you don't possess the skills to? am i supposed to just let the more capable take over? maybe this is when my sister chimes in and degrades all my problems by telling me i'm having a quarter life crisis. gah, i hate it when the things i stress about the most suddenly feel trite. i'll just say this: i am so freakin tired of paying for education and, at the same time, too lazy to earn my own fortune. i'm not good when left to my own devices. someone needs to provide mental stimulation soon or i will implode.
comment on music: this woman's accent is so strong, i can hardly understand a word she is singing. 'feathers on my breath' sounds like 'feaaaathers. sunlight. braiiiin.' really. what the hell.
is it me or does this photo look like either a puppet show or like they are about to break out into a tap dance routine? i like the bowtie, mr. estonia. stay classy.
